Here Is The Secret That Nobody Knows

Thursday, November 29, 2007

i think that telling others about a once-important relationship lessens it, somehow. as if in the telling and the sharing, their importance is, deliberately or otherwise, downplayed, reduced and simply made smaller by attempts to console, to empathise or to sympathise. but it's not. it's not small and it's not meant to be small. not yet.

and as long as it's big, no, it's not okay. no, you've never had a similar experience. no, you bloody don't know how i feel. because this is big. this is devastating. this is so enormous in its significance that i can't contain it. i drown in it. i am lost in it.

i think that eventually, in my own way, in my own time, i will take these memories and downsize them, miniaturise them, make them small enough that i can hold them in one hand, see them in one glance.

until then, no one will know.

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5 Comments:

At November 30, 2007 at 4:36 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i couldn't agree more.

 
At November 30, 2007 at 8:06 AM, Blogger gan said...

haha. some people call that "community" and use it to deal with feelings they're not supposed to have.

 
At November 30, 2007 at 9:55 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

gan: haha i actually wrote a small snippet on how sometimes you do this deliberately to downplay feelings yourself, but it didn't fit so i deleted it =P

 
At December 1, 2007 at 11:31 AM, Blogger jabir said...

or that verbalising makes us see how insignificant they really are....but i hear ya.

 
At June 15, 2008 at 1:59 AM, Blogger t` said...

agreed. but, the odd thing is that you're sorta telling it now.

 

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